2010??!?

Holy crap, it's been more than a year since I've written in this. :O
I guess that says something about my life -_- wasn't as stressed out as I am now since two years ago...

Hrm let's see. College. Bittersweet.
I never imagined this really. Highschool went by too fast. I really..do.. miss it. Even with all it's retarded dramas and shit. That's what made it high school. Trivial things that really didn't matter. I guess we made small things seem larger than they really were because we hadn't experienced the real world yet. Not to say that college is exactly.. the "real world"... but it sure is a hell of a lot closer..

Midterms. The best week of your life. Right next to finals. I love it. oh yeah. fml.
no really, it's bad when you wake up and think you have a midterm you didn't study for.. or you wake up and think you overslept for class. dam those morning classes. but I do what I must... without morning classes, my schedule would be retarded. and by schedule i mean... my whole way of life. haha That's me, wake up early, sleep late. or KO early every two weeks for 12 hours and then we start the whole average of 5 hours of sleep each day.

eh. on another note. I CANT TAKE THIS ENDLESS STUDYING ANYMOREE. yeah, i guess it was my new years resolution... but FUCK this is so difficult. really. homework. tests. midterms. quizzes. labs. they all make me so depressed. It's an endless, depressing cycle... that's why anything that normally doesn't happen in a day, no matter how small or retarded it is, will make me laugh. or something.. (refers to bird crap the other week ^.^) yeah, other people may have been pissed as hell, but it was a change from this retarded way of living. I just want to go out... go explore... DRIVE. roadtrip?!?! damn, i want one. Today is Thursday.. and all i can think about is Friday. But when I think about Friday, I kinda get depressed cause I can't go home... can't really hang out with friends.. no car and all. -_- so im stuck doing hw and studying... egh. college for you.

anyway, i guess.... that's whats been bothering me for the last two weeks. I may not show it outwardly.. but yeah. it's been a major pain.


The worst is not knowing that that happy ball of sunshine is a black hole of death.